A Mom's Rant

     I love the idea of having a big family with me, all four of the kids, Barry and the extra family members.  Then there are the moments where A family member thinks that one kid is more special than the others.  As a mom of a special needs kid and a mom that has watched her child struggle through the anger, not being able to express ideas or learning the same topics as other classmates or brother and sister. When I listen to a woman who doesn't have children tell me that of all the kids only one is going to really make it life it stays on my brain for awhile. 
     My son, William, has made great strides.  No, his grades are not perfect, but he goes to school with no trouble.  My son at two years old was not talking and throwing fits because he couldn't communicate.  When he was in the elementary years he had a hard time after 1rst grade because of the divorce.  There are things he just doesn't want to do because he rather play video games, watch marvel movies and hang with mom.  Although, I want him to have friends and play outside he is just fine with the kids at church and his brothers and sister being his friends.  If he is happy I am happy.  He wants to learn to be a director of movies or deal with special effects.  This may change within the next couple of years, but I am confident (yes there are concerns) that he will succeed.  People's ignorance always amazes me.  Autism is not a death sentence.   

The Progressive Millennial

     The Progressive Millennial apparently goes to Ivy Tech.  He is about 20, years old and has a condescending tone.  When I was asked by this student if I worship Reagan I was apparently stunned by the question.  I was stunned by the question because I knew the answer in my head.  NO.  I do not worship Reagan.  I was five when he became President.  I only know a few sound bites about the man.  I know he had a friendship with Gorbachev, his wife had a "Just say no" program that I had to sit through during school assemblies and he bombed Libya and after that I had not heard anything since the attack on Benghazi.  All things I respected about President Reagan.  I am a conservative.  I do not worship anyone other than God.  

     I explained my stance of who I was as a conservative.  I am a conservative.  I am 41, years old, a mom, husband, daughter and friend.  I believe in Jesus.  I am for smaller government and I am pro-life.  I do not buy into the idea of because you do not want the baby that it is something of a burden.  There are people out there that would be proud to give a child a home. I have a friend of mine that is also a fellow blogger who went clear across the world because God was calling her to adopt a child from Serbia.  This is love.  Love is obeying what the Holy Spirit is telling you to do.  Yes its a feeling but it is more of an action and a show of faith.  These are my beliefs as a conservative.  My faith does not make me perfect it makes me forgiven.  I am forgiven, but I am not perfect.  

     This young man had a perception of me that I honestly didn't help to dismantle by my use of language.  Yes, I am angry.  I am angry because when I debate someone who is 20 years my junior felt the need to compare me with the Trump supporters that are over the top because of their anger.  I really hate to say it, but I get the anger.  When the Progressive Millennial who is not an American and wants to leave lecturing me about my conservatism with anger and hate then I become defensive and angry as well.  There will never be a moment that I forget the looks that I see when people look at me with disgust because of my NRA MOM bumper sticker.  I do not forget the moments when my children were brought into a conversation online with malice towards me.  I do not forget reading how Dana Loesch and children were threatened.  The hate will end this country.  The Progressive Millennial will be the down fall of this country because their inability to get along in this world without a handout or a feel good government policy to get them through life has been manifested into the Bernie or Trump supporter.  I get the Trump supporter.  There is a better way to channel the angry of the country's downfall.

May God be with the candidates of both sides.

Matching the Physical and Spiritual

The past year has been an amazing journey both physically and spiritually for both me and my family.  My one regret is that it has centered on my chronic pain.  I know that my husband made camping trips, family outings and everyday life as comfortable as possible for me.  It was all because my hip hurt to the point that sitting down for dinner, walking or even lying down to go to bed was tough to handle.  My husband made all of this endurable.  It is by the grace of God he did not go crazy.  When I say grace I mean that it was grace that eventually on June 9^th, my hip was replaced and life was changed.  My life was completely dependent on my level of pain.  It was not the life that I want to live with my new family.  Almost a year into this new life I am pain free and two semesters away from being a college graduate.  There is one caveat that has plagued me for the last twenty years. 

I am not at the weight that I should be at this moment in life.  My breaking point is that I feel the pain again.  It is probably the fact that I have osteoarthritis and the rain does not help with my condition.  I can do something to help.  I can lose weight.  Of course, this includes putting into practice the two lifestyle changes that Americans seem to hate.  First of all, my diet needs to change with a low calorie diet along with portion control.  No, I am not going to deny myself the foods that I love, but they will be more of a treat than a daily consumption.  Secondly, I really need to exercise and be able to move as I grow older, so that I can enjoy my future grandchildren.  What will I do this morning?

This morning I will spend time reading my Bible, walk the mall and I have already had a bowl of oatmeal.  I need to drink more water and stay away from sodas.  Also, I need to find substitutes for the foods that bring a form a comfort to me.  Please take this journey with me.  Let us take this life God has given us and do better physically, mentally and spiritually. 

Tuesdays in 2016

It is another Tuesday in America.  This year in 2016, we Americans are being bombarded by debates.  On this particular Tuesday is yet another group of primaries.  There seems to be a small minority who may care about this process.  I guess I can't say a small minority because Trump supporters seem to be just following instead of actually looking long and hard at the candidate of their dreams. 
     Although, I disagree with them I understand the anger that persist in America today.  The choice of who they are calling a conservative seems odd.  Trump brings to the table years of financially supporting Democrats such as, Hillary Clinton for his own gain.  He supports single payer healthcare and is a big supporter of the healthcare mandate.  The same mandate that says if you don't have healthcare you have to pay for it at tax time.  Barry and I had to pay $500, so we have felt this burden.  We are not fans. There has to be a better candidate.  In my eyes there is in the name of Ted Cruz. 
     Ted Cruz is my guy because he has been consistent since his Senate race in Texas.  I love his 10% across the board tax rate.  All of this being said if Ted Cruz is not nominated I will not support Trump.  I will vote Libertarian.  Does this mean a Hillary Presidency?  Yes, I can't vote for someone I don't believe in and I will as I did with Obama in 2012,  I wish her well.  I will pray for her safety and the safety of her family.  Cruz has my support until such a scenario takes place.